" Once you've hit rock bottom, all you can do is try to pick yourself up. "
I didn't think it would feel/be this bad. I miss you. I miss you dearly. It all just keeps replaying over and over again in my mind, like it's automatically trying to figure out what went wrong. How could you just leave? How could you just leave like that - like it was nothing? I'm drowning in my thoughts. They won't leave me alone. They cloud my mind like an endless parade. I can't shut them out. And it's fucking torturous. But I've hit rock bottom. And now all i can do is try my best to pick myself up. Or i'll be stuck in this state for as long as i live. I'm not saying it will be easy. It'll be so hard. But i'm stronger than this. Endure this pain, put a smile on your face. Pretend you're happy and soon you'll be numb to all of it. You can do this.